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tti
the·
Chief
(if
Si#nerr;·~' -
7i
itbronght
light with
it,
and commanded
a
filence in mv heart of all
thofe
tumultaous
thoughtsthat before
did ufeJike tnafterlefsHell
bounds,to roar and bellow, and make a hide–
ous npife
within
me.
It
fhewed
me alfo, that
1efus
Chrift
had.
yet
a
Word
of
Grace
and
Mercy
for me,tha.t
he
had
not,
as I had
feared,
quite
forfaken and caft off
Iny
Soul; yea,this was
a
kind
of
a Chide
7
for
n1y
pronenefs to Defpe..
rttion ; a kind of a threatning me, if I
did
not, ,
notwithftanding
my
fins, aad
the
heinoufnefs
of
then1,
venture
n1y
Salvation
upon
the Son
of God. But as to
n1y
deterrnini'ng about
this
ftrange
Difpenfation,
what
it
was, I
kne\V
not ; or from w·hence
it
came, I know· not;
I have not
yet
in twenty years time
been
able
to
rr1ake
a
J
ndgm~n
t
of
it:
'[thought then
n)hat
here
I
Jhdll be loth to [peak . . ·.
J?ot
verily,
that
fudden
ruf11ing
Wind w'as as
if
an
Angel had
come upon
rne, but
both
it
and the Sal
v
atiou
I willleave ·until. the
Day
o£
judgn1ent;
·on1y
this I
fay_, ' it :con1manded
a
great calrn in
rny
Soul,
'it
perfwaded
n1e
there
tnight
be·Hope : ·
It·fhewed rile;
~sI .
th0ught,
-what_
.t he
Sin
un–
pardonable
was .,
a11d that tny
Soul had
yet
-~
the bleffed Privilege to flee toJefns Chrift for
l\1e.rcy. · But I fay,
concer.ni,ng this
Difpen- -
fat
ton
I know 'not
\-V
hat
yet
to
[Jy
unto
it ;
·1
which was alfo, i'n truth" · .the canfe that at \
.f1rft'
I
did not
fp:eak. of
it'
in·the
Book; I
do' ·
110\N
alfo
le1V~
'It
to be
thought
on
oy
f\1cn
of
found
J
udgn~eqt.~ :
I.
lay
not
-~he
llrefs .
of
p1y ·
·
-
Sal..
~