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Grace A/Jounding
Salvation tbereupon,but upon
the
Lord jefi1s
!·n the Promife;
yet
feeing
I am
here
unfold~
.. tng of
my
fecret 'Things,
1
thought it
1night
not be altogether
inexpedient to let this alfo
fhew it felf,
tho' I cannot
now
relate the
matter
~s
there I did experience
it.
This
lafted in the favour of it, for about
three
or
four Days, and then I
o~gan
to
mifrruft,and
to defpair again.
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Wher:efore
frHl
n1y
life hung in doubt
before
1ne,
1ot knowin<T
which
way
I
jhould tip,
only this
l
f0und
myS~ul
defl re,even to
cafr
it
fel f at t he
fcot qfGra ce
byPraye t' and
Suppli.,
ca t ion. But,
Oh
!
'Tv a s
hJrd for me now to
bear th e
F~lce
to
~ray
to th is Chrift fo r
Mercy,
againft vvhoh1
I had
thus
tnofl>vilely
fi nued :
'-fvvas hard Worki I
fay,
eo offer to look him
in the Face
:1gainft
vv
hon1l
had fo
vilely
fin–
ned; and indeed, I have four1d
it
as diffic ult
to
corn e
t o
God
by
Prayer, after
backfJidi ng ·
from
him,
as
to do
any
other
thi'ng. Oh, the
Shan1c
t hat
did
nrw·
attend
me!
efr,ecially
·when 1 thrJegb t I am
nom
agoing .to
pray
to
.bi tn fo r ITlcrcy, tha t
I
had fo
lightly..
efteemed
but
a
w
bile
before! I
wa~
afhamed; yet even
confou!·lded ,
bectt
ufe
t his
Villany
had been
connr:ittej
hy
me;
:)u t
I
faw
there
v'as
bnt
one
\V
ay
\vith
!ne, .
I
muft
go to
~im
and
hurnble
n~.y f~l f
unto him, and
beg
th ~t
he,
of ·his
wonderfu l
Mercy, wou ld Ihew
Pity.
to
1ne, _.and
bave
1\1ercy
upon :lTIY
\Vretcheri
fin–
tt11
~oul.
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