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to the Chief of Shmers.
8
~
condemn,
lay
guilt
upon,
and alfo add con- /
tinual Affiittion and Shan1e unto
my
Soul :·
The dread of them was upon rnr, and I trembled
at God's
Sarr1uels,
1
Sam.
I
64..
1
8
3.
Now
alfo
the Ten1 ptcr began afrefh to
mock
my
Soul
another
Way,
faying.,
7hat
~hrifl;
indeed, did
pity ,my
cafe, and was forry
for
my
lofs
;
but forafmuch as I had finned and
rdnfgrcf{ed
as I had done, he could
by
no ·means
htlp
me, nor fave
_me
fr,om
what
I
feared;
for
my
SitJ
was n'ot
of
the nature
of
theirs
for rvhom he
bled and died, neither was
it
coltnted with tho[e
that were laid to his charge when he hanged on the
Tree
:
Therefore,unlefs he fhould come
dorv'lf
from
_he..1·ven,and die anew for this ftn,tho' indeed he did
greatly
pity
me,yet I could haveno benefit of him•.
Thefe things
may
fee
mridiculous to
others,
even as
_ridiculous
as
they were in the1i1fel
ves,
hut to
tne
they were moft tonnenting Cogi–
tations: Every of then1 aag1nented
my
Mi..
fery,
that
Jef'us Chrift
fh'ould
have fo
much
Love as
to
pity
me,
when
he
could not
help .
me; nor
did I think that
the reafon
why
he
could not help me., was, becaufe his
~1erits .
,
were weak)or
his
G··ace
and
Salvation
fpent
on them
already,
but
becanfe
his faithfulnefs
to
his
tltreJtning
woul.d
.not let
hi'n1
extend
his mercy
to
me. Befides I thought,
as
1
have
~lrcady
hi.nted,
th~t
n1y
fin
was \\'rapped
up
ln a
Prom
rfe; and
If
not,
then I knew
affu–
redly,that
it
was
1nore
e:1fie
for Heaven
and
Earth
to
p:1fs
away,than·for
me to
have
eter-
nal