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·Grace aboundl11g
nJl Life. So that the ground of all thefe fears
of mirie,
did
ari[e
frotn
a
ftedfaft
Belief
that
I
h~d
of
the
ftability
of
the
Holy
Word
of
God; and alfo
frori1
tny
being
niif-informed
of the nature of
my
fin.
1
34. But, Oh
t
I-fow this would add to
my
Affiiction,to conceit ·that I fhould be
guilty
of
fuch a firi,
for
which he
did
not die. Thefe
thoughts
\Vould fo confound
me, and
impri–
fon
me,and tie me up
frotn faith,that
I
knew
not
·what
to do: But, Oh!
thought
I,
th1t
he
\Vould
con1e
down again! Oh,that the Work
of
rJa~
"s Red emption was
yet
to
be
done
by .
Chrift? .How
would
1pray
him,
and intreat
l1in1
to
count
and
reckon
tbis
fin
amopgft the
reil: for
which
he
died?
But this
Scripture·
would fh .. ke me down as dead ;
Chrifl being
raifed.f-orn the dead,
dieth
no more:
De~Zth
bath
no
mor~
,dotniniort
over
him,
Ron1.6.9.
I
85.Thus
'by
the
.ftrang'e
and:
unufuala/Jaults
of the
Temp·cer,
was
1ny
Soul like a
broken
Vefrel,driven as
\Vith
the Winds,
and
to!fed
fometimes
headlong into
De(pair ;· · fame–
times
upon
theCovcn.ant
of Works,and
fome·
times to wifh
that
the
new
Covenant and the
conditions
thereof
U)ighf
fo
far forth as l;
thought
n1y
felf
concerned,
be
turn'd
another
Way,and
chang'd.
Bttt
in
all
thefe,
I was buttts
tho(e
that
joftle
againfl
the
Rocks;
mo~t
bro,ken,
· ·
fcattere,d and
rent.
Oh,the unthought of ima–
ginations, frights,
fears
and
t~rr~rs,
that
~re
affeEted
by
a thorough applicat1pn of_gntlt,