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to the Chief
of Sinners.
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7
others. T his therefore was a great eafeFnent
to
my
mind; to
wit,
t hat
1ny
11n was
p
"rdo–
nablc,
that
it
WG\S
not
the
fin
unto de. i th,
(1
joh,
5·
16,
17.)
None
~ut
thofe
that.k '! ow
. ·what tny -rrouble
(by
their o"'
1
ll expenence)
~'as
can tell what relief
catne
to
mySoul
by
this
'confideration.
:·it
was a releafe
tG
n-1e
fro1n
m'y
f~rn1er l~ond~;
and
a
fuelrer
from
che
for–
mer ftorm :
I
feemed
now· to
fi:and upon _the
funcgronnd with other
finners,and
to
f~ave
as go.od
right·totheV/ord
and Prayer as
any
of then1.
J.
gs.Now;I fay;I
was in Hopes that
my
fin
was not unp:1rdonable, but
that there
n1ight
be Hopes
fo~
meto obtain forgivenef:s.
But,
Ob, how
Satan
now
did
·lay
about
hin1
fo.r
to
bring me
dq
.J.
n again!
But
he cou) d
by
no
n1eans
do
it,
neither this
day,
nor
the
moll:
part of
the
next;
for
this
gooJ fentence
ftood
like a
l\1il~poft
at
my
back; Yet towards the
evening of
the
next
day,
I fdt
thisWord
be–
gin to leave me,
and
to
withdravv
its
filppor-
.tation
fro1n n1e,
and
fo
I returned
to
my
old __
fe~rs
aga·in, but
with
a
gre.at
deal
of
flUdg–
ing and
peev iThnefs,
for I
feared
the
farrow
of
defpa-ir;
nor could
n1y
Faith
novv
longer
retain -this
Word.
,
·
I
89.
Bt:.t
the n_ext
day
at
evening,
befng
under
my
fears.;
I
went to feek-the Lord
and
as
I
,prayed, I
~rieg,and
my
Soul
cri';"d
t~
hitn
in thefe word·s, with ftrong Cries;
0 Lord I
hl{etch
thee
,
jhcw me
t!~;~t
thoz,t
haJt
loved :ne
with