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Grace
a!Jounding.
an
cotnbined' together to
banifh
tne out of
the·
\AT
orld ;. I was abhored of them, and
ttrtfit
to
d
wen
amocg thein,or be partaker of their he–
nefi ts,beca ufe I had fin ned againft the Saviour.
Ob,.ho·w
happy
now
was
every Creature,over
I
was !
For
they frood
faft and kept their fra-
. t ion, but I was gone and loft.
187.
Then breaking out
in
the.bitternefs..
of
my foul ;I
faid to
my
felf,with a grievous
figh,
How
can God
co1njort
ji,tch
a
wretch
as I?
I had
no fooner fa
id it,
but this
returned
unto
me,as
an EGtho
doth
anfvver a
Voice,
This fin is.not
unttl
death.
At
w
hieh I was
~s
if
I ·had been rai..
fed
out_of
the Grave, and ·cried
out
~gain,
Lord hQrv
coHldft
thou
find ·out {ttch
a
~Vord
as
this?
For I was
filled
with Admiration at
th~
fitnefs·,and
alfo
the
unexpectedne_fs
of
thenm~
tence. 1-.he
fit~efs
of
the
vV
ord
the
rightnefs .
of
toe
timing of
it,
the
power
and
fweetnefs
and light and
glo1~J7;
that
came with it-alfo .was.
marvellous
to me to
find.
I
was
now-;for the.
time out of doubt, as to
that
about
which I
fo ipuch
w
.1s
in
doubt
before:
My
fears
before.
were,that
my
fin
was
not
patdonab1e,
and fo
that I
had
no
right
to
pray,
t')
repent')e.Y-..c.
or·
that
if
I
did,
it
would be of
no
Advantage
or
Profit
to n1e. _
But
now thought I,
if
this fin
is
not
unto death, _
then
it is pardonable :, there·
fore fron1
this
l have
encouragen1ent
to
come-·
to God
by
Cbrift
for
mercy,
"-tO
confidtr the
Pron1ifc
of
Forgiven_efs,
as
that
tNhJCh. fl: ands
· vtith open
anns
to recei
vc
me
as
wen
as
others.