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to the
Chief
of Sinners.
3
7
datnning. Were my foul but in a good con–
dition, aad were I but fut:e of
it,-
ah,
how
rich
Jhou]d I
ef:teetn
my felf, though
bleft
,
but with
Bread and Water :
I Ihould count
thofe but fmall Afflictions,
and
fhould
bear
them as little burthens;
.A
wounded_
Spirit,
who
can
bear
?
_
27. And
though
I was
thus troubled,
and
toffed,
and
afflicted
with the fight., and fenfe,
and
terror
of my own
wickednefs,
yetJ
was
a(raid to
let this fenfe and fight go
quite
off
. my
mind ; for I found, that unlefs
guilt
of
Confcience
was taken off the
right
way,
that
is,
by
the Blood
of
Chrift, a
Man grew ra–
ther
worfe for
the
1ofs
ofhis
trouble
of
Mind
than
better. Wherefore,
if
tny_
guilt lay
hard
. upon me, then I lhould
cry'tha~
the Bloqd of
.Chrift
1
might take it
off: And
if
it
was going
off without
it
(for
the fenfe of Sin would be
· fometin1es as if it would die,and go quite
a-
. v1ay)
then I would
alfo
ftrive
to
fetch
it upon
my
heart
again,
by
bringing
the punifhment
for
fin in
~ell-fire
upon
my
Spirit;and
Ibould
cry, -
Lord let it not go off
my
Heart,
but
1
the
right
way,
but
by
the'
Blood
ofChrift, and
by
the
application of.thy mercy, through him to
my
Soul .;
for
that Scr:1pture
lay
n1uch
upon m·e,
roith–
,out
{hedding
of
Blood
thert
is no
remij]ion,
H.eb.
9·
22.
And that
which
made me
the
more·
afraid
~f
this,
was, becaufe I
had
feen fome,.
__who, though when they
were
under
wounds
of
~onfciert~e,
would
cry and pray;
yet
·
. ,
_·
- . feektpg